I do it for you…

Why?

:(

I hope he’s never a thought I anyone’s mind ever again. He can do it fine but I can’t? :( I’m just confused. I dont know. I hate not being your first because I can’t ever give u what that fucker could. god damn.

And now I just sit here and cry just because I feel like this moment that we could share, that would bring us so much closer, won’t ever happen. And only Adam could do it to you and I can’t. I don’t get it. :( I just feel like a wreck and i dont know. Fuck him. I never wanna hear about him ever again. EVER!

I’ve never done it before and ive finally come to realize i never will :( I hate knowing…I just wish, that it would happen. We’ve tried everything and nothing has worked so let’s just both accept the fact it never will :/

It’s never going to happen :( no matter what. I just wish I could. I always urge to but never get to satisfy. I want but always let it go. Idk…it’ll never happen. I just know and fucking hate it :(